Who has 2 thumbs and can’t hold a job? This Guy!!!
I am yet again unemployed.
I made the fatal error of leaving over $600.00 worth of meat in the heater overnight, because I mistakingly assumed my colleauge put it away. Assumptions aside it overwhelmingly was my own stupid fault, and I have absolutely no malice towards my former employer, just guilt and embarassment.
So as I wipe away the tears and type this with shaky hands (yes I am kidding in that line, I’m a dumbass not a sissy– big difference) I very legitimately curse the fact that I don’t have the unemployment website set to my “favorites” on my browser.
Right now I just need to ease myself down from the nihilistic rage I am feeling so I can calmly start looking for work again.
The sad thing really is that I really was trying my best at that job. I worked hard, I was punctual, professional…
It’s just sinking in now that I am an essentially incompetent person. It’s hard to have illusions or denial anymore.
It’s just the stone cold fact that I seem to be an unemployable moron; evidence is evidence, it’s not like you can argue facts.
Maybe I took to many shots to the head as a bouncer and it’s left me a little retarded—the sad thing is that thought is giving me a touch of comfort right now, and my comforts are few at the moment.
So now at least I know what it is to be an incompetent and know it. Not an experience that was high on my list but has provided a degree of enlightenment just the same.
There is Satori even in the depths of shame.
Yet again, Lummoxcateers… Wish me luck, I have a family to feed…